Surefire by Econoline Crush
One of my favorite bands from the 90s and still one of my favorites bands period. Kicking off October with the lyrics: "Me, I wish I could be satisfied easily but I'm not...never enough..."
Lucky Now by Ryan Adams
Mr. Adams is back with another fantastic album and this is the 1st single and again, lyrically, I connect with it. "I feel like somebody I don’t know. Are we really who we used to be. Am I really who I was. The lights will draw you in. And the dark will bring you down. And the night will break your heart. But only if you’re lucky now...And if the lights draw you in. And the dark can take you down. And love can mend your heart. But only if you’re lucky now"
Ghost Towns by Radical Face
Free song on iTunes but I do love the lyrics. "Cus all my life Is rapped up in today, no past of future here...But I miss you...There's no comin' home...I still think of you....Yeah everyone knows. If you can't let it go." The song reminded me of dad and his love for my mom. She may not be here but that doesn't stop him or our family from still loving her and missing her.
Don't Stop Me Now by Queen
This should be a theme song for me. "Tonight I'm gonna have myself a real good time. I feel alive and the world it's turning inside out Yeah! I'm floating around in ecstasy So don't stop me now don't stop me. 'Cause I'm having a good time having a good time."
Concrete Wall by Zee Avi
I heard this song on WNCW and bought the entire album. Great song and artist. A song about knowing when to let go and move on.
Hey Girl (Theme from "New Girl") by Zooey Deschanel
LOVE LOVE LOVE this show and this song.
Turn Around by Iration
When I heard this song, it reminded me of my friend Heather and how she was/is feeling over her recent break up. "It's hard I know, to let it go...I'm missing your love madly. Dying inside, I got to let you know that you were my heart."
Get Outta My Way by Kylie Minogue
I love Kylie. She can do no wrong musically in my book. She would be my guilty pleasure artist if I believed she was a guilty pleasure. This song came on my iPod on a Sunday afternoon and it just stood out and demanded my attention. "What's the worst thing that could happen to you? Take a chance tonight and try something new...Now I got a taste I wanna explore. Ain't going to waste, no not anymore..."
The End of a Ghost Story by Matthew Ryan
My love for Matthew Ryan's music has shown up on this site a few times and this song just brought me to tears when I heard it. Again, I love how the iPod on shuffle can move you from one emotion to the other. It wasn't tears of sadness just tears on how simply beautiful and haunting this song was. I suggest you go buy EVERYTHING Matthew has ever recorded.
Heaven by Opiate for the Masses
The "heaviest" song of month but I just love the lyrics "I can't get to heaven because heaven's a place that don't want me."
Better Than Today by Kylie Minogue
"What’s the point in living if you don’t take a chance?"
The Sky is Broken by Moby
This song was featured in an X-Files episode called "All Things" and besides it being a wonderful episode, the song just fit perfectly in it. I really dug the episode. It reminded me to just to take a moment and just breathe.
Brand New Key by Melanie
This is the song in the HP Printer commercial with the baby in a walker zipping around through traffic. I thought Zooey Deschanel was singing it but not.
Faster by Matt Nathanson
They play this song during pre-game @ the Charlotte Checkers. It's a cool little ditty.
Lullaby by The Editors
Their cover of the Cure's song is fantastic
Pink Cadillac by Bruce Sprinsteen
Heard this playing overhead in a Wild Wing Cafe at lunch during the month. Just put me in a good mood.
Disaster by The Hundred Days
This is how I ended October...getting to see one of my favorite new artists playing live and then blacking out drunk after two days of ass kicking work. Sort of a disaster but I wouldn't have wanted it any other way. As the song says, "It's my disaster."
And if The Hundred Days are ever in your town, please go check them out. They were AMAZING live and I cannot wait to see them again!
Monday, October 31, 2011
October Earworms
Here are the songs I've woken up with in my head this month.
10.01 - ---
10.02 - ---
10.03 - Girl at a Party by The Hundred Days
10.04 - Trouble by Butch Walker
10.05 - ---
10.06 - ---
10.07 - Firework by Katy Perry
10.08 - ---
10.09 - DJ Got Us Fallin' In Love by Usher
10.10 - ---
10.11 - Summer Wine by The Corrs
10.12 - ---
10.13 - Reaching by Jason Reeves
10.14 - Holy Train by Gareth Asher
10.15 - Irreplaceable by Beyonce
10.16 - Calendars and Clocks by Gareth Asher
10.17 - Daydreamer by Adele
10.18 - ---
10.19 - Hate Me by Blue October
10.20 - ---
10.21 - Get Low by Lil' John
10.22 - Middle of Yesterday by Our Lady Peace
10.23 - Human Nature by Michael Jackson
10.24 - Boom Boom Pow by Black Eyed Peas
10.25 - Soulshaper by Juke Kartel
10.26 - ---
10.27 - Don't Do Me Like That by Tom Petty
10.28 - Don't Stop (Color on the Walls) by Foster the People
10.29 - ---
10.30 - The Hundred Days by The Hundred Days
10.31 - Passed Out on the Floor by Drop D
10.01 - ---
10.02 - ---
10.03 - Girl at a Party by The Hundred Days
10.04 - Trouble by Butch Walker
10.05 - ---
10.06 - ---
10.07 - Firework by Katy Perry
10.08 - ---
10.09 - DJ Got Us Fallin' In Love by Usher
10.10 - ---
10.11 - Summer Wine by The Corrs
10.12 - ---
10.13 - Reaching by Jason Reeves
10.14 - Holy Train by Gareth Asher
10.15 - Irreplaceable by Beyonce
10.16 - Calendars and Clocks by Gareth Asher
10.17 - Daydreamer by Adele
10.18 - ---
10.19 - Hate Me by Blue October
10.20 - ---
10.21 - Get Low by Lil' John
10.22 - Middle of Yesterday by Our Lady Peace
10.23 - Human Nature by Michael Jackson
10.24 - Boom Boom Pow by Black Eyed Peas
10.25 - Soulshaper by Juke Kartel
10.26 - ---
10.27 - Don't Do Me Like That by Tom Petty
10.28 - Don't Stop (Color on the Walls) by Foster the People
10.29 - ---
10.30 - The Hundred Days by The Hundred Days
10.31 - Passed Out on the Floor by Drop D
Thursday, October 27, 2011
I Don't Want to be a Non Vegetarian
As I sat and waited for warm ups to start at the Charlotte Checkers game on Sunday, I realize how much I enjoyed a non animal diet.
In the last 2 weeks, I've slowly added meat back into my diet and I hate it. I wanted to prepare my body for my trip to Australia, but after this week, I believe, I'm just going to go back to a 90% vegetarian diet. I'll eat seafood on occasion and maybe one day a week until after Australia, I'll have a meat product in my meal.
Reasons: I hate the way my body feels after eating a burger, chicken, etc. It completely shuts down and I'm tired all the time. I feel heavier, bloated, and just feel all around bad. I might have missed the flavors of a good Southern BBQ plate, but the taste does not make feeling like a sack of crap worth eating meat.
So, I'm back to being a mostly vegetarian until 2012.
In the last 2 weeks, I've slowly added meat back into my diet and I hate it. I wanted to prepare my body for my trip to Australia, but after this week, I believe, I'm just going to go back to a 90% vegetarian diet. I'll eat seafood on occasion and maybe one day a week until after Australia, I'll have a meat product in my meal.
Reasons: I hate the way my body feels after eating a burger, chicken, etc. It completely shuts down and I'm tired all the time. I feel heavier, bloated, and just feel all around bad. I might have missed the flavors of a good Southern BBQ plate, but the taste does not make feeling like a sack of crap worth eating meat.
So, I'm back to being a mostly vegetarian until 2012.
Monday, October 24, 2011
The Hundred Days Come To The Queen City
Can one have a restraining order slapped against them for promoting a band?
If so, then I'm gulity for shameless promotion of The Hundred Days.
Did you know they are playing on Saturday night?
No? Are you lliving under a rock?
I can not confirm if it's their first time in Charlotte, but I can confirm, it will be my first time seeing them, and I am beyond stoked for this set.
THEY GO ON AT 5:30 PM - DO NOT...I REPEAT DO NOT MISS THIS SET.
Yes, there might be that other bands playing but for me, the only one that's playing is THE HUNDRED DAYS.
Yes, working in radio, I do get to see a lot of shows/concerts/whatever you want to call them, but there are only a few shows that I truly get to enjoy and even fewer shows that I get excited for. I'm musically jaded. A band or artist have to truly impress me for me to suggest to a friend or random stranger that they should pick up their CD or go to their show.
Then there are bands that when you listen to their music, you just know that what they have is special. They aren't the cookie cutter artst/band of rock, pop, country, etc.
That's what I felt when I heard The Hundred Days. I can't quite put my finger on what it is, but they've got that spark. The spark that will take them far if the music industry is kind to them. Let's face it, they and most bands that don't sound like what's in, has a long hard road ahead of them. Some make it, some don't.
So, if you're going to Music Monsters and Mayhem on Saturday, I ask you to come out early and give music that you might normally listen to a chance.
Best case scenario: You became a fan.
Worst case scenario: You drink a few extra beers.
Remember, THEY GO ON AT 5:30 PM - DO NOT...I REPEAT DO NOT MISS THIS SET.
I'll be acting like a fool in Section 102. I hope to see you there..come say HI and rock out with me.
WATCH
"SEX U"
"SEX U"
WATCH
"GIRL AT A PARTY"
"GIRL AT A PARTY"
Thursday, October 20, 2011
How Much Do Goalie Cams Cost?
While most of the world watched the World Series Game, I was watching hockey and I'm almost positive that the baseball game was NO WHERE near exciting or fun to watch as the Toronto Maple Leafs vs Winnipeg Jets.
Not only did Winnipeg blow a 2 goal lead in the 3rd, they let the Leafs score not 1 but 2 goals within 13 seconds of each other.
This was the goal of the night by Joffrey Lupul.
Not only did Winnipeg blow a 2 goal lead in the 3rd, they let the Leafs score not 1 but 2 goals within 13 seconds of each other.
This was the goal of the night by Joffrey Lupul.
Monday, October 17, 2011
My Birthday Wish
Dear Family, Friends, Twitter Followers, Strangers, Aliens from Space or Anyone Else Who Happens to Stumble on this Site,
Many know I'm going to Australia in Dec (and if you don't, you are living under a rock).
In one month, I'll be adding another year to my life and I keep getting asked, what do I want for my birthday and here it is:
Instead of that $3 card and that $7 shot/drink you were going to buy me, please take that $10 and donate it to the Birthday Gifts/Donations to Australia. You can do it right on here on this site. Look at the side bartop menu bar that says "BIRTHDAY GIFT". Just enter how much you'd like to donate and follow the instructions. It will take you to Pay Pal ant it's all secure as well. Of course, if you prefer not to use the online system, you can donate to me in person as well.
Trust me, your donation to the Australia trip will not go unnoticed or unappreciated it.
It will more than likely be buying me a meal, a camper van (RV for us Americans) spot to park for the night, combining donations to climb the Sydney Harbor Bridge or skydive the beach.
Hell it might even save my life if I happen to get stung by a blue bottle jellyfish (aka Portuguese Man of War) or get whacked in the noggin' by a rogue surfboard.
Just know that you are helping make a dream come true and that it will make a difference in my life.
Love and many thanks,
~Shelia
If you're in CLT, come celebrate with me in person on Nov 12th @ The Gin Mill.
Many know I'm going to Australia in Dec (and if you don't, you are living under a rock).
In one month, I'll be adding another year to my life and I keep getting asked, what do I want for my birthday and here it is:
Instead of that $3 card and that $7 shot/drink you were going to buy me, please take that $10 and donate it to the Birthday Gifts/Donations to Australia. You can do it right on here on this site. Look at the side bar
Trust me, your donation to the Australia trip will not go unnoticed or unappreciated it.
It will more than likely be buying me a meal, a camper van (RV for us Americans) spot to park for the night, combining donations to climb the Sydney Harbor Bridge or skydive the beach.
Hell it might even save my life if I happen to get stung by a blue bottle jellyfish (aka Portuguese Man of War) or get whacked in the noggin' by a rogue surfboard.
Just know that you are helping make a dream come true and that it will make a difference in my life.
Love and many thanks,
~Shelia
If you're in CLT, come celebrate with me in person on Nov 12th @ The Gin Mill.
Saturday, October 15, 2011
The End of a Ghost Story
This is such a beautiful song...
If you don't have anything by Matthew Ryan, I suggest you buy everything he has out.
Thursday, October 13, 2011
Why I'm Keeping Facebook
If you know me, you know I am not a huge fan of Facebook. I don't have any specific reason. It didn't do anything to me. It didn't punch me in the face or run over my dog. I just think it's a playground where the immature do that "I read <insert person's name here> update and they said <insert something that will unfortunately be misread>. I'm not 12. I'm not in high school. I'm not in college or some sorority. I don't have time for your Facebook drama. I've got real world problems of my own.
So when I decided to post my novel The Dumbing Down of Love written in 2009 on my website. I deleted all but 3 or 4 posts on my Facebook. I then disabled the Write on Wall feature. I hid who I'm friends with (stop being a Facebook creeper, more than likely we have the same friends if I'm friends with you.) Then shockingly, I hid all buy my sister & dad's status updates.
That was in September and guess what...I created a Facebook page for my writing. Don't know why I didn't think of it before, but I now can interact with those that comment on my writing and what I post on my website. I don't have to play in the sandbox of Facebook. I can sit at the picnic table, have a nice discussion, and watch the kids fight over the who said what to who.
Again, I'll post links to my writing and I'll try to make it bit more personal, but again, I am not a FB addict. There's so much out there that asks me to connect to Facebook that I feel very 1984 Big Brother is watching me. Like I said before, I've got enough real world problems of my own to have to "connect" or "log in" with Facebook and corporate America if that's your company's only way to connect to you, I believe you're missing out. You can leave your comments on the Facebook page and I'll respond and you can comment section of the website moving forward or even do something a little more human, tell me in person or write a nice note
New age problem solved. No more he said she said drama on Facebook. Just me posting for those who haven't joined Twitter (for real? what are you waiting for?).
Follow me on Twitter.com/SheliaTaylor and if you are a Facebook lover, you can follow me Facebook.com/SheliaWrites
Listening to "Poppy" by Zee Avi
So when I decided to post my novel The Dumbing Down of Love written in 2009 on my website. I deleted all but 3 or 4 posts on my Facebook. I then disabled the Write on Wall feature. I hid who I'm friends with (stop being a Facebook creeper, more than likely we have the same friends if I'm friends with you.) Then shockingly, I hid all buy my sister & dad's status updates.
That was in September and guess what...I created a Facebook page for my writing. Don't know why I didn't think of it before, but I now can interact with those that comment on my writing and what I post on my website. I don't have to play in the sandbox of Facebook. I can sit at the picnic table, have a nice discussion, and watch the kids fight over the who said what to who.
Again, I'll post links to my writing and I'll try to make it bit more personal, but again, I am not a FB addict. There's so much out there that asks me to connect to Facebook that I feel very 1984 Big Brother is watching me. Like I said before, I've got enough real world problems of my own to have to "connect" or "log in" with Facebook and corporate America if that's your company's only way to connect to you, I believe you're missing out. You can leave your comments on the Facebook page and I'll respond and you can comment section of the website moving forward or even do something a little more human, tell me in person or write a nice note
New age problem solved. No more he said she said drama on Facebook. Just me posting for those who haven't joined Twitter (for real? what are you waiting for?).
Follow me on Twitter.com/SheliaTaylor and if you are a Facebook lover, you can follow me Facebook.com/SheliaWrites
Listening to "Poppy" by Zee Avi
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
CD Review: Billy Jack By Honeyhoney
honeyhoney is one of those bands that you just find yourself falling in love with ESPECIALLY when you see them live. The banter between Suzanne and Ben is infectious and you want to sit a bar with them and share stories over many bottles of whiskey and hope that they will be kind enough to break out the guitar and banjo and sing a few songs for you.
I was very fortunate to have a record label rep introduce me the musical stylings of honeyhoney on their first release and I've been a fan of their music ever since. Suzanne's voice is haunting, bluesy, and crawls under your skin and stays there. The chemistry between Suzanne and Ben comes through their music. Sheer electricity.
1) Angel of Death
When I listen to it, I hear the story of a girl that is obsessed. Her love will be the death of whomever she loves. It's musically a haunting song.
When I listen to it, I hear the story of a girl that is obsessed. Her love will be the death of whomever she loves. It's musically a haunting song.
2) Glad I've Done What I Did
This song paints such a vivid picture with the opeing lyric "I was born with blue skin...tied in knots that I'm still in. When the doctor cut me free, man he made an enemy out of me. I should have stayed, crawled back in and hid, but I'm glad I done what I did." In my opinion, a song about no regrets.
This song paints such a vivid picture with the opeing lyric "I was born with blue skin...tied in knots that I'm still in. When the doctor cut me free, man he made an enemy out of me. I should have stayed, crawled back in and hid, but I'm glad I done what I did." In my opinion, a song about no regrets.
3) Ohio
Might have been about Ohio, but it could be about anytown anywhere. I love the chorus to this song. One of my favorite songs on the CD
Might have been about Ohio, but it could be about anytown anywhere. I love the chorus to this song. One of my favorite songs on the CD
4) Don't Know How
For lack of better words, I find this song really pretty and a song about letting go.
For lack of better words, I find this song really pretty and a song about letting go.
5) Turn That Finger Around
I will play this song for my nieces when they are older and hope they get the message that I got: your actions are your own. Before you blame others, maybe you should look at yourself first.
I will play this song for my nieces when they are older and hope they get the message that I got: your actions are your own. Before you blame others, maybe you should look at yourself first.
6) I Don't Mind
This song is a toe tapping song and if you don't want to shake your bootie to it then, seriously, something is wrong with you. My 2nd favorite song.
This song is a toe tapping song and if you don't want to shake your bootie to it then, seriously, something is wrong with you. My 2nd favorite song.
7) Old School Friends
The song title says it all...a song about the old school friends you let go, outgrow, or just let slide away.
The song title says it all...a song about the old school friends you let go, outgrow, or just let slide away.
8) Let's Get Wrecked
My favorite song on this CD. A song about grown up love and how hard it is.
My favorite song on this CD. A song about grown up love and how hard it is.
9) LA River
I find this song to be just sad...there is nothing on that screams sad, but it just makes me homesick.
I find this song to be just sad...there is nothing on that screams sad, but it just makes me homesick.
10) All On You
This song makes me realize that sometimes the work you do isn't enough and that sometimes the person you're in a relationship or friendship with must also work to meet you half way.
This song makes me realize that sometimes the work you do isn't enough and that sometimes the person you're in a relationship or friendship with must also work to meet you half way.
11) Thin Line
"I want whiskey when I'm sick and a man when I'm well, but it's nice to have them both when I want to raise some hell." This song is sort of how I live my life.
"I want whiskey when I'm sick and a man when I'm well, but it's nice to have them both when I want to raise some hell." This song is sort of how I live my life.
WATCH "1979" Smashing Pumpkins Cover
WATCH "TURN THAT FINGER AROUND"
WATCH "LOST HIGHTWAY"
Vegetarian to Non Vegetarian
I've been a vegetarian for some time. I'm not overly strict on myself anymore. If I'm dining with friends and I can't find an option that includes no meat whatsoever, I'll eat fish. I'm a vegetarian with pescatarian lean if needed. I rather like being a vegetarian and there are some great recipes I use, but I'm going to Australia in December and I don't want to limit myself to just a vegetarian and seafood diet. Everyone asks if I want to try kangaroo, and I picture this cute furry critter and cringe, but I've also decided to go into the mindset of "don't ask, don't tell me what's in it" mentality.
When I traveled to New Orleans for the 1st time, I was a hardcore vegetarian until that trip. On that trip, there was no way in hell I was going to give up trying the amazing local food like gumbo, creole, crawfish, etc. It may have been a once in the life time opportunity for me to try the food. I feel the same way about Australia.
I can't travel around the globe and not try anything. If the local favorite is a kangaroo steak and a glass of regional wine, then by god, I'm trying it. I might fall in love with the meal or I just might think it's okay. I at least tried it before I said I hated it.
Having said that, Sunday & today, I incorporated meat into my diet. Sunday, I had several shredded prosciutto on goat cheese crostini and today, I had one steamed pork dumpling. Not exactly a lot of dead animal but it's more than I normally eat and I'm having to make a mental note not to over think it. For me, the biggest issue will be the mind game I play with myself...the you're going to feel sick if you eat this.
Another reason, I want to start incorporating meat into my diet, is that something is off within my body. I know that I am not currently getting all the vitamins I need and the vegan ones I take cause so much discomfort in my chest I feel like I'm having a heart attack (I'm assuming it would feel like what I'm feeling).
So I'm a new dietary adventure now...we'll see how it goes...I'll keep the blog updated with my journey and we'll see how it goes....
Listening to "I'm Not Worried About It" by Gareth Asher
When I traveled to New Orleans for the 1st time, I was a hardcore vegetarian until that trip. On that trip, there was no way in hell I was going to give up trying the amazing local food like gumbo, creole, crawfish, etc. It may have been a once in the life time opportunity for me to try the food. I feel the same way about Australia.
I can't travel around the globe and not try anything. If the local favorite is a kangaroo steak and a glass of regional wine, then by god, I'm trying it. I might fall in love with the meal or I just might think it's okay. I at least tried it before I said I hated it.
Having said that, Sunday & today, I incorporated meat into my diet. Sunday, I had several shredded prosciutto on goat cheese crostini and today, I had one steamed pork dumpling. Not exactly a lot of dead animal but it's more than I normally eat and I'm having to make a mental note not to over think it. For me, the biggest issue will be the mind game I play with myself...the you're going to feel sick if you eat this.
Another reason, I want to start incorporating meat into my diet, is that something is off within my body. I know that I am not currently getting all the vitamins I need and the vegan ones I take cause so much discomfort in my chest I feel like I'm having a heart attack (I'm assuming it would feel like what I'm feeling).
So I'm a new dietary adventure now...we'll see how it goes...I'll keep the blog updated with my journey and we'll see how it goes....
Listening to "I'm Not Worried About It" by Gareth Asher
Friday, October 7, 2011
66 Days Closer to Going
It seems crazy that on March 3rd, I wrote a blog about One Step Closer to Going and now, I'm a mere 66 days away.
SIXTY-SIX DAYS!!
Holy shit Batman!
I know I'm going. I've paid for the airfare. I've put the deposits down on the guest house and the camper van. I've got the passport ready and my ETA is approved.
But I still can't believe it's happening!
I AM READY FOR THIS JOURNEY but I am also no where near prepared for this trip. I'm worried if I'll have enough money, freaking about about driving a stick shift, and making myself nauseous with worrying and freaking.
Yet, having said all the above, I'm strangely also at peace with it all. Somehow, I know I will have enough money for the trip and that driving through a foreign land on the opposite of the road/vehicle will be easier than I have imagined.
Things happen for a reason. The journeys one are suppose to take manifest themselves because one is suppose to take it. The Universe will make it happen for you, you just have to trust and believe.
After all the years of dreaming and planning, I'm ready for this journey Universe. I'm ready to be amazed by you once again. I'm ready to see the magic of your world!
~Shelia aka Star Gazer
Originally posted on www.boomerangbabes.com
SIXTY-SIX DAYS!!
Holy shit Batman!
I know I'm going. I've paid for the airfare. I've put the deposits down on the guest house and the camper van. I've got the passport ready and my ETA is approved.
But I still can't believe it's happening!
I AM READY FOR THIS JOURNEY but I am also no where near prepared for this trip. I'm worried if I'll have enough money, freaking about about driving a stick shift, and making myself nauseous with worrying and freaking.
Yet, having said all the above, I'm strangely also at peace with it all. Somehow, I know I will have enough money for the trip and that driving through a foreign land on the opposite of the road/vehicle will be easier than I have imagined.
Things happen for a reason. The journeys one are suppose to take manifest themselves because one is suppose to take it. The Universe will make it happen for you, you just have to trust and believe.
After all the years of dreaming and planning, I'm ready for this journey Universe. I'm ready to be amazed by you once again. I'm ready to see the magic of your world!
~Shelia aka Star Gazer
Originally posted on www.boomerangbabes.com
66 Days Closer to Going
It seems crazy that on March 3rd, I wrote a blog about One Step Closer to Going and now, I'm a mere 66 days away.
SIXTY-SIX DAYS!!
Holy shit Batman!
I know I'm going. I've paid for the airfare. I've put the deposits down on the guest house and the camper van. I've got the passport ready and my ETA is approved.
But I still can't believe it's happening!
I AM READY FOR THIS JOURNEY but I am also no where near prepared for this trip. I'm worried if I'll have enough money, freaking about about driving a stick shift, and making myself nauseous with worrying and freaking.
Yet, having said all the above, I'm strangely also at peace with it all. Somehow, I know I will have enough money for the trip and that driving through a foreign land on the opposite of the road/vehicle will be easier than I have imagined.
Things happen for a reason. The journeys one are suppose to take manifest themselves because one is suppose to take it. The Universe will make it happen for you, you just have to trust and believe.
After all the years of dreaming and planning, I'm ready for this journey Universe. I'm ready to be amazed by you once again. I'm ready to see the magic of your world!
~Shelia
SIXTY-SIX DAYS!!
Holy shit Batman!
I know I'm going. I've paid for the airfare. I've put the deposits down on the guest house and the camper van. I've got the passport ready and my ETA is approved.
But I still can't believe it's happening!
I AM READY FOR THIS JOURNEY but I am also no where near prepared for this trip. I'm worried if I'll have enough money, freaking about about driving a stick shift, and making myself nauseous with worrying and freaking.
Yet, having said all the above, I'm strangely also at peace with it all. Somehow, I know I will have enough money for the trip and that driving through a foreign land on the opposite of the road/vehicle will be easier than I have imagined.
Things happen for a reason. The journeys one are suppose to take manifest themselves because one is suppose to take it. The Universe will make it happen for you, you just have to trust and believe.
After all the years of dreaming and planning, I'm ready for this journey Universe. I'm ready to be amazed by you once again. I'm ready to see the magic of your world!
~Shelia
Thursday, October 6, 2011
Check 1 Check
Testing a new app. Let's see how this is going to work!
Remember don't stop believing!
Remember don't stop believing!
The Dumbing Down of Love: The Playlist
Part of my writing muse is music. This is the soundtrack to The Dumbing Down of Love.
And Never Look Back by Matthew Ryan
The lyric "I lean in for, to give her a kiss. I spilt her drink, I burnt her wrist with my cigarette. I’m clumsy when I get close" painted such a scene in my head that I wanted to write it into the story, but never did.
The Dumbing Down of Love by Frou Frou
This song gave me the title of the novel.
Save Your Best for Last by Steve Reynolds
I could just picture Gray saying, "Save your best for me," to Olivia
Walk to the Water by U2
The lyrics paint such a mental picture. I pictured Olivia and Gray having the conversation in this song and it is one of my favorite U2 songs.
Hawkmoon 269 by U2
Just love this song. It just stood out to me for some reason.
The Night Starts Here by Stars
I don't know how I discovered this song, but it fits Olivia and Gray. It seemed to sing about everything one would go through. It's also just a damn good song. Besides you can't go wrong with the lyrics, "Forget your name. Forget your fear, the night starts here."
Come Together by Donavon Frankenreiter
Lyrically, this conversation could be the conversation anyone in love will have. It's the realization of you might have just found the one.
Reaching by Jason Reeves
When I heard this song, I felt it was written for Gray and how he had watched Olivia from the edge of her circle and how he longed for more but never reached a bit further for her.
Love is Real by Jason Mraz
This is from Jason's EP "The E Minor EP in F"
I love the lyrics "Love is real, it is not just in novels or the movies. It is fact and it is standing here right in front of you...You can feel all the knots in your stomach they start to untie and suddenly it's not so hard to say you're all right." If Gray was a singer, he would have sang this song to Olivia.
I Believe in Love by The Storys
Another, I don't know how I discovered this song, but I'm glad I did. It inspired me to let Gray and Olivia believe in love. Not all love is doom and gloom, most is good. It's what my parents have, my grandparents have, and what most of the relationships I look up to have.
Closing in by Matthew Ryan
I have always loved this song. Like the song says, "Step by step now, day by day, from where you've been...Don't be afraid to fall through deep space. Don't be afraid to disappear without a trace."
It's just a great song that I found haunting and emotional.
All the Ways I Want You by Jimmy Buffett
A simple "love" ballad by Jimmy. "Hard to believe it's happening, but my whole world's shruken to. All the ways I want you."
I Don't Know by Lisa Hannigan
This is inspired the Olivia and Gray, "I don't know talk after their short lived separation." I love the way Lisa just asks what "you like" and says "what she likes." It's what we all want to know but are often too scared to ask. Sometimes, I just think that one must have the motto, "I would want to, I am game," and take that step to get to know someone.
The Dumbing Down of Love by Frou Frou
This song gave me the title of the novel.
Save Your Best for Last by Steve Reynolds
I could just picture Gray saying, "Save your best for me," to Olivia
Walk to the Water by U2
The lyrics paint such a mental picture. I pictured Olivia and Gray having the conversation in this song and it is one of my favorite U2 songs.
Hawkmoon 269 by U2
Just love this song. It just stood out to me for some reason.
The Night Starts Here by Stars
I don't know how I discovered this song, but it fits Olivia and Gray. It seemed to sing about everything one would go through. It's also just a damn good song. Besides you can't go wrong with the lyrics, "Forget your name. Forget your fear, the night starts here."
Come Together by Donavon Frankenreiter
Lyrically, this conversation could be the conversation anyone in love will have. It's the realization of you might have just found the one.
Reaching by Jason Reeves
When I heard this song, I felt it was written for Gray and how he had watched Olivia from the edge of her circle and how he longed for more but never reached a bit further for her.
Love is Real by Jason Mraz
This is from Jason's EP "The E Minor EP in F"
I love the lyrics "Love is real, it is not just in novels or the movies. It is fact and it is standing here right in front of you...You can feel all the knots in your stomach they start to untie and suddenly it's not so hard to say you're all right." If Gray was a singer, he would have sang this song to Olivia.
I Believe in Love by The Storys
Another, I don't know how I discovered this song, but I'm glad I did. It inspired me to let Gray and Olivia believe in love. Not all love is doom and gloom, most is good. It's what my parents have, my grandparents have, and what most of the relationships I look up to have.
Closing in by Matthew Ryan
I have always loved this song. Like the song says, "Step by step now, day by day, from where you've been...Don't be afraid to fall through deep space. Don't be afraid to disappear without a trace."
It's just a great song that I found haunting and emotional.
All the Ways I Want You by Jimmy Buffett
A simple "love" ballad by Jimmy. "Hard to believe it's happening, but my whole world's shruken to. All the ways I want you."
I Don't Know by Lisa Hannigan
This is inspired the Olivia and Gray, "I don't know talk after their short lived separation." I love the way Lisa just asks what "you like" and says "what she likes." It's what we all want to know but are often too scared to ask. Sometimes, I just think that one must have the motto, "I would want to, I am game," and take that step to get to know someone.
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Wednesday, October 5, 2011
The Dumbing Down of Love: Day Thirty
The Dumbing Down of Love
(720 Hours in a Relationship)
DAY THIRTY
“Where are we going again?” Olivia asked as Gray’s car zipped along a quiet tree lined road.
“To brunch,” he answered, gripping the steering wheel tighter.
Watching his knuckles turn white, Olivia followed the stress in his hands to his jaw line. “What’s up?” she asked. “You’ve been gripping that steering wheel like it’s a life or death situation.”
Gray took a deep breath and tried to smile. “I lied to you,” he admitted.
Confused, Olivia asked, “You what?”
“We’re not going to a client of mine for brunch,” he confessed. “I’m taking you to meet my family.”
Olivia gasped. “What?”
“I want them to meet you. I want you to meet them.”
Taking a deep breath, she slowly pushed a calming breath through her system and nodded. “What if they hate me?”
“They’re not going to hate you,” Gray answered, letting go of the steering wheel and reaching for her hand. “No one could hate you. You have this uncanny ability to make people fall at your feet and you don’t even know it.”
Olivia nodded, squeezing his hand. “Are you sure you want them to meet me?”
“I’ve never been more sure of anything in my life,” he answered.
“I think I’m going to hyperventilate. Crack the window.”
Gray pressed the button and let the window roll down. He glanced over at Olivia who leaned her head against the frame of the open window. “You’ll be fine.”
“Shh,” she said and closed her eyes.
Pulling the car over to the side of the road, Gray threw it in park and killed the ignition. “Are you okay?”
“I don’t know if I can do this right now,” she answered without looking at him.
Opening his car door and getting out, Gray walked to the passenger side and opened it. “Get out,” he said and held out his hand.
Olivia slid her hand into his and got out of the car.
Gray closed the door and looked at her. He took a deep breath, knowing how nervous she was feeling. “I’ve never done this before either.”
“Not reassuring me,” Olivia said as she squeezed his hand. “If you’re shaking and nervous, how are you suppose to stop me from shaking and being nervous.”
“By telling you I love you,” he answered, “and hoping that’s enough.”
“Wait, what do you mean when you say you’ve never done this before?”
“Brought someone home,” Gray answered.
“Never?” Olivia asked, slumping against the car.
“Never.”
“Really?”
Gray nodded.
“Why?”
“I don’t know,” Gray answered, leaning against the car next to her. “I guess I always thought it would have been a waste.”
“You didn’t bring girls home in high school or college?”
Gray shook his head. “No. I never thought it was important until now.”
Putting her head on his shoulder, Olivia took his hand into hers. “You could have told me,” she said. “I mean, I want to make a great first impression on your family, and here I am dressed in jeans.”
“It’s what they’ll be in as well.”
Olivia lifted her head and turned to him. “Are you really sure you want them to meet me?”
Gray nodded, putting his hands on her waist and pulling her closer to him. “Yes, and if Emma doesn’t meet you soon, she may stalk you and just show up at your door one day.”
“Why would she do that?”
“I’ve talked to her about you,” Gray said. “She’s dying to meet the woman who got under my skin.”
Olivia took a deep breath and nodded. “Okay. Let’s do it,” she said, hugging him. She knew at that very moment, her life was about to change forever.
“Don’t worry, they are going to love you.”
“As long as you love me, I’ll be fine.”
# # #
Olivia slipped her hand into Gray’s as they walked up the sidewalk to the front porch of the Victorian house. “This house is stunning,” she said as the climbed the porch steps together. “The wrap around porch and rocking chairs. I’m in love.”
“It is great,” Gray agreed. “I use to sit on the corner there and watch the sun go down.”
“I thought you said you moved here because of college?”
“I did. This house was my grandparents and Emma inherited it. She was going to sell it at first, but when she became pregnant with the twins, she decided to move here.” Gray looked away from the corner and at Olivia. “My dad was a northerner and when my mom married him, she moved up north with him. We’d spend our summers here with our grandparents, but when my dad died we spent less and less time here. It wasn’t until Em moved here and I went to college down here that I realized how much I loved this place.”
“And you stuck around.”
Gray nodded. “I couldn’t leave, and now I’m stalling.”
Taking a deep breath, Olivia smiled at him and opened the screen door. “Are you ready for this?”
Gray knocked on the door and said, “I’m ready.”
The door swung open and a beautiful blonde in dark jeans and a black sweater smiled at them. “You do exist,” she squealed and hugged Olivia. “Everyone, come meet Olivia.”
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Tuesday, October 4, 2011
The Dumbing Down of Love: Day Twenty-Nine
The Dumbing Down of Love
(720 Hours in a Relationship)
DAY TWENTY-NINE
“I now give to you Kyle and Dean Chance,” Simon said as the two of them took the center of the dance floor. “On their first dance, they have requested that their dearest friends join them. Olivia, my dancing queen, may I have this dance with you?”
Olivia covered her face with her hands as everyone turned to stare at her. “I’m going to kill him,” she whispered to Gray. “Will you come rescue me after the first dance is over?”
“No way. This boyfriend doesn’t dance.”
“Even if I promised you carnal sex at the end of the night.”
“Even with the promise of carnal sex,” Gray said.
Sighing, Olivia stood. “Please rescue me,” she said as Heather grabbed her arm and dragged her across the floor.
Gray watched as Simon picked her up and spun her around. The three of them joined Thom, Zane, Ross, and Susan who all hugged and started dancing in a circle with each other.
“Never in a million years, would I think I’d be at a commitment ceremony with a girl I met only a few weeks ago,” Chris said as he sat down in the chair next to him, “but here I am.”
“Should I give you the same shit you gave me as Olivia and I started seeing each other?” Gray asked and took a drink of his wine.
“Please don’t,” Chris said as Ellie joined them.
“Please don’t what?” she asked, handing Chris a wine glass.
“Gray asked if he should give me the same shit I gave him when he and Olivia started seeing each other.”
“Are you?” she asked Gray.
Gray shook his head. “Some battles are not worth the hassle.”
“She’s good for you,” Chris said as he watched Olivia and her friends dance. “I’m glad you never listened to me.”
Smacking him on the back of the head, Gray smiled. “I love your sentiment,” he said. “She is pretty special to me.” Leaning forward onto the table, he swirled his wine glass and sighed. “I told her that I loved her yesterday.”
Ellie squealed with excitement. “What? Really?”
“Congratulations,” Chris said
“You’re serious about her,” Ellie said, patting him on the arm.
Gray nodded and let his eyes fall on Olivia and her friends. “I know you’re both going to scoff, but I think I might have found that special someone.”
Ellie squealed again with excitement.
“Could you never squeal again? God, you sound like a rat that got snapped in a trap,” Chris said.
“Screw you,” Ellie said and hit him in the arm. “When you feel the way Gray feels, it will be the last squeal.”
“What about when you feel the way Gray feels?”
“I’ll reach that way before you will so you’ll still be last squeal.”
“A toast,” Chris said and raised his glass. “To Ellie never squealing again, to me being at a commitment ceremony with a girl I hardly know but want to know better, and Gray who found someone to put up with this shit.”
“Remind me that if I do get married you’re not giving any toast,” Gray said as they toasted.
# # #
“Crazy huh?” Zane asked as he and Olivia danced to a song that Simon and his band were playing.
“Yeah,” she answered, “Simon can actually sing.”
“He took it to heart when you said he couldn’t sing. Went out and took vocal lessons.”
“This is for Olivia,” Simon’s voice boomed over the microphone.
Olivia smiled at him over Zane’s shoulder and he winked at her. “I thought you’d like to know that Gray said he loved me yesterday,” she said as she and Zane continued to dance.
“Congratulations.” Zane felt the last remnant of his heart slid away and held Olivia a little closer to him. “Did Dean totally flip out when you told him?”
“I haven’t told him yet,” she answered. “I wanted you to be the first to know.”
Zane pulled away and looked at her. “Really?”
Olivia nodded. “You were always here for me. When I thought that Gray thought it was moving too fast, when I first met him, and now.”
“It’s what friends are for,” Zane said as he watched Gray walk towards them. Any jealousy he held against him, slipped away with each step he took. “And if he does decide to hurt you anyway, I’ll still kick his ass for you.”
“That’s all I can ask of you,” Olivia said as Gray appeared at her side.
“Zane, do you mind if I cut in?”
“Sure don’t,” he said.
“Thanks,” Gray said as he shook his hand.
“You’re welcome,” he said, pulling him close into a man hug. “I know you’ll treat her well.”
“Without a doubt,” Gray replied, patting him on the back. Looking at Olivia, he smiled, “May I have this dance?”
“It would be my pleasure,” she said and took his hand. She watched as Zane stepped away as they took their spot on the dance floor. “I thought you didn’t dance.”
“I don’t,” Gray replied, “but I’ll learn for you.”
“You would?”
Gray nodded. “I was also hoping we could slip out early if I did dance with you.”
“For carnal sex?”
Smiling, Gray kissed her. “That would nice, but I was hoping you’d escort me to brunch tomorrow. I have a client who’s doing this last minute brunch for everyone tomorrow. I was hoping you could make an appearance with me. I think it would make a great impression on them if you were there with me.”
Olivia nodded. “Of course, I’m there to support you. I’d do just about anything for you.”
Gray smiled and pulled Olivia closer. He knew his first dance with her wouldn’t be his last and he was just fine with that.
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Monday, October 3, 2011
Music Inspiration
It's amazing how music can inspire. I was going through old playlists that were for some writing projects I had started and never finished. I'll also post The Dumbing Down of Love's playlist after I finish posting the novel as well.
I stumbled onto a playlist "Untitled - Piers Druchark" and my interest in the project rekindled. It's an untitled story with a man character named Piers. Great filing system isn't it!
As I listened to the songs, I remembered why I started the story and though I may not want to take it in the direction I once did, I do want to finish it. I remember writing the first scene which takes place at the execution of a criminal and hearing "We Might As Well Be Strangers" by Keane and having the entire first chapter flash before my eyes.
The entire playlist brought me back to why I created the characters. The playlist also helped me to remember why I write.
In November, I normally do the NaNoWriMo challenge (short for National Novel Writing Month) and I'm really good for about 2 weeks and then my birthday and the holidays hit and I start failing. This year, I plan to take October and November and try finish Piers' story.
I know I've said it a million times before this year, but I need to get back to writing. It makes me sane in this insane world.
I stumbled onto a playlist "Untitled - Piers Druchark" and my interest in the project rekindled. It's an untitled story with a man character named Piers. Great filing system isn't it!
As I listened to the songs, I remembered why I started the story and though I may not want to take it in the direction I once did, I do want to finish it. I remember writing the first scene which takes place at the execution of a criminal and hearing "We Might As Well Be Strangers" by Keane and having the entire first chapter flash before my eyes.
The entire playlist brought me back to why I created the characters. The playlist also helped me to remember why I write.
In November, I normally do the NaNoWriMo challenge (short for National Novel Writing Month) and I'm really good for about 2 weeks and then my birthday and the holidays hit and I start failing. This year, I plan to take October and November and try finish Piers' story.
I know I've said it a million times before this year, but I need to get back to writing. It makes me sane in this insane world.
CD Review: Really? By The Hundred Days
I've written about The Hundred Days before. I was obsessed and I do mean obsessed with their single "Sex U." I'm pretty sure I drove my co-workers insane by putting it on repeat for days on end.
Really? was released in August, but I didn't want to immediately post a review on it. I was so excited that the CD was coming out that I knew I would love every song on it and probably couldn't give an unbiased opinion on it and I wanted to spend some time getting to know the songs.
Track Break Down and my opinon on the song:
1. Girl at a Party
There is something about Jonathan Smith's vocals in this song. It reminds me an 80's vocalist who's name I cannot remember from a band I cannot remember but his voice brings me back to when music was fun. This song is fun. I just want to dance around and sing this song at the top of my lungs. It also makes a helluva an earworm.
1. Girl at a Party
There is something about Jonathan Smith's vocals in this song. It reminds me an 80's vocalist who's name I cannot remember from a band I cannot remember but his voice brings me back to when music was fun. This song is fun. I just want to dance around and sing this song at the top of my lungs. It also makes a helluva an earworm.
2. Tattoo Girl
Another fun song. If you're not toe tapping or fighting the urge to dance in your office/cube/car while listening to this song, then something is seriously wrong with your fun side. I, in fact, think that you should turn this song up and let your fun side free. The only thing you might regret is dancing like a fool.
Another fun song. If you're not toe tapping or fighting the urge to dance in your office/cube/car while listening to this song, then something is seriously wrong with your fun side. I, in fact, think that you should turn this song up and let your fun side free. The only thing you might regret is dancing like a fool.
3. Sex U
Normally, the first thing I notice about a song is the bass and/or drums. Then the vocals and music and lyrics. This song had me hooked at the beginning with the bass and drums. INFECTIOUS. I personally cannot get enough of this song. It's catchy. It's rocking and it's my favorite song on the CD. If you don't love it, we need to speak about cleaning out your ear canals. The spoken part of the song reminds me of David Byrne of the Talking Heads in "Once in a Lifetime."
Normally, the first thing I notice about a song is the bass and/or drums. Then the vocals and music and lyrics. This song had me hooked at the beginning with the bass and drums. INFECTIOUS. I personally cannot get enough of this song. It's catchy. It's rocking and it's my favorite song on the CD. If you don't love it, we need to speak about cleaning out your ear canals. The spoken part of the song reminds me of David Byrne of the Talking Heads in "Once in a Lifetime."
4. Out of Nowhere
Boy meets girl song perhaps? I like way the lyrics unfold into a story.
Boy meets girl song perhaps? I like way the lyrics unfold into a story.
5. The Hundred Days
I hope the band nor anyone else cringes but the first 5 seconds take me back to the disco era though I wasn't old enough for disco, it's just immediately throws me back to that era of music and the chorus brings me to the 80s. If I posted about this song on Twitter I would tag it with #RockDancePartySong, because rock songs can make you feel like dancing and feel like partying without having to be too rock or too hard.
I hope the band nor anyone else cringes but the first 5 seconds take me back to the disco era though I wasn't old enough for disco, it's just immediately throws me back to that era of music and the chorus brings me to the 80s. If I posted about this song on Twitter I would tag it with #RockDancePartySong, because rock songs can make you feel like dancing and feel like partying without having to be too rock or too hard.
6. Disaster
Slower song (NOT A BALLAD...just a slower tempo). It's much needed if you're listening to this CD from beginning to end. If not, your legs would give out for shaking your booty too much.
Slower song (NOT A BALLAD...just a slower tempo). It's much needed if you're listening to this CD from beginning to end. If not, your legs would give out for shaking your booty too much.
7. Silver and Gold
I really dig the guitar & bass in this song. It stood out to me so much that it took me a while to actually "hear" the rest of the song.
I really dig the guitar & bass in this song. It stood out to me so much that it took me a while to actually "hear" the rest of the song.
8. So What
My 2nd favorite song on the CD. Fun. Fun. Fun. I love the bass. I love the lyrics. I love this song.
My 2nd favorite song on the CD. Fun. Fun. Fun. I love the bass. I love the lyrics. I love this song.
9. Hey
"Hey, aren't you a handful...hey kiddo, I want to fight for you." Dig this song.
"Hey, aren't you a handful...hey kiddo, I want to fight for you." Dig this song.
10. Spin
Love the lyric, "We dance all night to bad rock and roll." Please note, this CD is not bad rock and roll but it's rock and roll you can dance too.
Love the lyric, "We dance all night to bad rock and roll." Please note, this CD is not bad rock and roll but it's rock and roll you can dance too.
Video for "Sex U" WATCH IT, IT'S FUN!
Read more: http://www.1065.com/pages/RockGoddess.html?page=5#ixzz2L1rwDAyU
The Dumbing Down of Love: Day Twenty-Eight
The Dumbing Down of Love
(720 Hours in a Relationship)
DAY TWENTY-EIGHT
Gray stared at the building in front of him and looked down at his phone to make sure he had the right address. Looking up again, he saw the address and it matched the one in his phone. Getting out of his car, he walked to the entrance. A note on the door instructed him to ring the buzzer so he did. The metal curtain moved and he saw Olivia’s smile on the other side.
“Well, you’re a nice surprise,” she said as she opened the door. “Come in.”
Pulling a bouquet of flowers from behind his back, he smiled at her. “These are for you,” he said as he stepped in.
Olivia leaned over the flowers and kissed him. “They’re beautiful,” she said and took them from him. Closing and locking the door behind him, she watched him glance around her new and barren office space. “Welcome to Madison Designs. It doesn’t seem like a lot but I do have this great open area that looks onto the street and it’s close to my favorite coffee spot. I have two other rooms for whatever I need them for and a small kitchen and bathroom.” She walked toward the back of the room and sat down on the one piece of furniture that was in it. She held the bouquet of flowers to her nose and inhaled their scent. “I figured for now, that this spot was the perfect place for my desk,” she said. “I can see the street, people passing by, and anyone who comes in. I am going to put a table near the window where I can sit with clients to discuss their web designs and such.”
Gray walked over to where she sat and stood in front of her. “It’s a great space, and when your business grows, you can always knock down walls and expand the space.”
Olivia smiled. “I love that you’re so supportive,” she said, putting the flowers down next to her.
“Of course I’m supportive,” he said as she wrapped her legs around him and pulled him closer to her. “I love you.” Gray swallowed and felt the air in the room tightening around him. He hadn’t expected to hear those three words from his mouth. He hadn’t even thought of using those three words.
Olivia’s heart beat rapidly in her chest. Taking his hand, she put it palm down above where her heart was. Sliding her hand free hand around his neck, she pulled his face closer to her and kissed him. Leaning back on the desk, she brought Gray with her. “Can we break in my new office space?” she asked.
“I would be honored to help you break in your new place,” he said as she slid her arms under his jacket and then his shirt. Wrapping his arms around her waist, he stood and pulled her up with him.
Holding on to him, Olivia stared into his eyes. “I love you too,” she whispered.
# # #
Olivia watched as Gray slid into his jacket and then looked down at the hem of her dress. She smoothed the hem across her knees and then repeated it. Smoothing the hem again, she let both hands rest on her knees.
Gray adjusted the collar of his jacket and looked at Olivia who was staring intensely at her hands. “Are you ready?” he asked, dropping his keys into the pocket of his jacket.
“Yeah,” she answered without looking up at him. Taking a deep breath, she tried to get up but couldn’t.
“Is everything okay,” he asked, kneeling down in front of her. She nodded, but he knew it was a lie. “What’s up?” he asked, putting his hand under her chin and lifting her head so he could look into her eyes.
“Did you mean it?” she asked and bit her lower lip.
“Mean what?” Gray asked.
“What you said to me in my office today? The ‘I love you part’,” she stammered.
Caressing her face with his thumb, he leaned in closer to her. “Of course I did,” he answered “I don’t throw those three words out to just anyone. Why do you ask?”
Olivia shrugged her shoulders, feeling her insecurity trample up her spine. “You just left so quickly afterwards.” Sighing, she pulled away from his touch and looked down at her hands.
“I was in the middle of a big ad. I shouldn’t even have left the office,” Gray admitted, taking both her hands into his. “Look at me.”
Raising her head slowly, Olivia looked at him and tried to hide the tears that were slowly filling her eyes.
“But I did leave the office because I knew today was your first day moving into your office space. I knew you were doing it alone and I wanted to stop by and show you my support. Bring you flowers to brighten your day.”
“I know I’m over analyzing things,” she muttered. “I’m sorry.”
“Did you mean it when you said you loved me?”
Olivia nodded. “Yeah, and I know you had the ad.”
“I didn’t rush out of there in fear or because I regretted saying I love you. I do love you. If I hadn’t come to see you, I wouldn’t have gotten to break in your new office with you and I wouldn’t have gotten to say I love you.”
Olivia smiled. “It wasn’t planned was it?”
Gray shook his head. “Not at all. I surprised myself as much as I probably surprised you.”
“It was a great surprise,” she said, cupping his face in her hands and then kissing him. “I’m very happy that you came by to be supportive.”
“It was better than being stuck in the office. So anytime you need support, please call me. I’ll be there in a flash.”
Olivia smiled. “Speaking of supporting,” she said, “Kyle called and said I got the job. His bosses loved my designs. They want me to redesign their entire website and then their sister companies.”
Gray pulled her into his arms and hugged her. “That’s fantastic. I knew you were going to wow them.”
“Do you think we have time to quickly celebrate?”
Pulling away from her, Gray looked at her and saw the desire burning in her eyes. “I love the way you think,” he said as he removed his jacket, “but I love you more.”
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Sunday, October 2, 2011
Live Laugh Love
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The Dumbing Down of Love: Day Twenty-Seven
The Dumbing Down of Love
(720 Hours in a Relationship)
DAY TWENTY-SEVEN
Dean paced back and forth across the steps of the courthouse. His stomach was in knots and despite all Olivia was doing for him he could not shake his nerves.
“Take a deep breath,” she said, stepping in front of him. “They’ll be here any minute. You know traffic sucks at this time.”
Dean nodded and spun around to continue his pacing. “But you know overreacting me and I am in full blown panic mode.”
“I do know you,” she said, stepping in front of him again. She shortened his pacing path by half. “Take a deep breath.” She watched as Dean inhaled and closed his eyes. “You have to exhale for this calming to work.”
Exhaling, Dean opened his eyes. “Forgot.”
“I’m not sure how you forget to breathe, but I understand. Are you going to be this nervous tomorrow?”
Dean shook his head. “No,” he answered. “Tomorrow this will all be done.”
“This will all be done soon,” Olivia replied. She stared into his sky blue eyes and smiled at him. “Thank you for letting me be a part of this.”
“You’re welcome but Kyle and I should be thanking you and Gray.”
“We wouldn’t miss it for the world.”
Taking her hands into his, he smiled. “I’d like to retract my earlier statement of I wouldn’t move in with someone I’ve known less than month,” he said. “I was afraid for you. You have such a big heart that anyone could just walk in and snatch pieces of it from you. I was over reacting as usual.”
“It’s okay. You’re like a brother to me. Why wouldn’t I listen to your advice and opinion?”
“But I was trying to protect you and I wasn’t thinking of you or your happiness.”
“But you were in my corner and it’s always nice to have someone in your corner championing you on and trying to protect you.”
“I know, but I’m sorry,” Dean said and squeezed her hands. “Gray is an amazing guy. We’ve all known he was good for you, but we all now know how amazing he is and how amazing you two are together. You guys were such a machine at the hospital. Making sure Susan and Ross were okay. Making sure we were all okay. You’re the glue that holds us together and at the hospital, I wondered who held you together when we were all a mess and then I saw Gray just letting you rest your head on his shoulder. He kissed you on the head and you smiled. He holds you together. I don’t care if it’s been less than a month Olivia. He’s your glue.”
Olivia felt tears swell in her eyes and she quickly wiped them away. “You’re going to ruin my mascara,” she said and kissed Dean on the cheek.
“As long as I don’t ruin anything else, I’m okay with a little Alice Cooper makeup,” he said and hugged her.
“We’re here!” a voice shouted behind them.
“Oh thank god,” Dean sighed.
Olivia turned and saw Kyle and Gray sprinting across the lawn of the courthouse. “I told you,” she said and nudged him in the rib.
“I know. I over react.”
“Sorry,” Gray said and hugged Dean. “I took a wrong turn trying to avoid a detour.”
“I thought I was going to kill him,” Kyle said and kissed Dean on the cheek. “You look so handsome.”
“As do you.”
Both Kyle and Dean were dressed in perfectly tailored and crisp suits that would put any fashion model to shame. Gray was also dressed perfectly in a suit that made Olivia’s heart race.
“Come on love birds,” she said and ushered them into the courthouse. “We can’t keep the judge waiting.”
“You look lovely,” Gray said as he fell instep behind her. She was wearing a simple black sheath dress that hugged her figure just right.
“Thank you and keep a mental reminder that the lady loves the glasses and suit thing you’ve got going on,” she said, reaching back and taking his hand.
“Mental reminder noted,” he said with a squeeze of her hand.
# # #
Placing a glass of scotch in front of Kyle, Gray sat down in the booth across from him. Leaning back into the booth, he unbuttoned his jacket and loosened his tie. “Cheers,” he said. “To you and Dean.”
Smiling, Kyle raised his glass and toasted Gray. “Thank you.”
Gray nodded with a smile. “Can I ask you a question?”
Tapping at the side of his glass, Kyle nodded.
“Why I am here?”
“We’re drinking. We’re drinking in honor of my recent marriage.”
Putting one foot on the seat of the bench, Gray rested his elbow on on his knee. “I know that,” he replied, “but shouldn’t your best friend be here? Shouldn’t Dean be here?”
Kyle put the glass of scotch to his lips and nodded. “It’s a good question. It’s in fact, a great question. My best friend doesn’t believe in the sanctity of marriage. Be it a straight marriage or a gay marriage. He thinks it’s a crock of bullshit people feed themselves to be happy.”
“He sounds like a happy person,” Gray replied sarcastically.
“Funny thing is,” Kyle admitted, “is that he actually is. He’s fully committed to his partner. They have two adorable little girls, but he doesn’t do the marriage thing.”
“So no commitment or marriage ceremony for him?”
Kyle shook his head and reclined into the bench seat. “Nah. When Dean and I talked about getting married and having a commitment ceremony, we had completely decided that we’d just go to the courthouse and do it with the court appointed witness. It wasn’t until we both saw you and Olivia at the hospital that night of the Susan and Ross craziness.”
Gray stared at Kyle. “What about us?” he asked, dropping his leg to the floor.
“We were sitting across the room from you guys,” Kyle confessed, “and everyone was here or there. You walked over and gave Olivia a cup of coffee and sat down next to her. Without words between you two, you guys instinctively reached for each other’s hands. She rested her head on your shoulder and you kissed the top of her head.” Sitting up in his seat, he continued, “Dean and I just looked at each other and smiled. I knew what he was thinking and he knew what I was thinking.”
“So what were you thinking?” Gray asked, leaning forward onto the table between them.
“As I had said with the courthouse thing, we didn’t want a big wedding. Just a small celebration with our friends, but when we saw you guys that night we realized that we wanted to share our love with two people who understood what it meant. That’s why we asked you guys to be our witnesses the other night at dinner. Dean always has this theory that Olivia is the glue that holds everyone together but no one’s her glue, but when he saw you at that very moment, he turned and said glue.”
Gray took a drink of his scotch and nodded. “And that’s why we were there, why I’m here.”
Kyle nodded. “I know we don’t know each other very well and hell, we’ve only know the collective group of friends about the same time, but I’ve been in a relationship long enough to know what glue is and what love is. I can tell you like that idea.
“I do,” Gray admitted, “and I don’t mind admitting that at all.”
“Then what’s up?”
Gray shrugged his shoulders. “Just wondering about the future. All the what if’s and the what should happens.”
“Don’t,” Kyle suggested. “You’ll make yourself sick and you’ll make what you have with Olivia toxic. Just enjoy the ride. The future is the future and all you can do is enjoy the moment that you’re in.”
“And things just fell into place with you and Dean?”
“We had bumps and bruises along the way, but yeah, it fell into place. Listen to your gut. It will lead you the right way at the right time.”
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All rights reserved | This is a rough draft and not the final version
Saturday, October 1, 2011
Songs of My Life - September 2011
Stuck in a Rut by Burn Halo
This song is a carry over from August. I am still loving the lyrics "I know that I'm going to be okay. I know there's still hope."
Leave the Light On by Beth Hart
I have been a Beth fan ever since I heard "L.A. Song." She's got a voice that is full of raw emotion and I was fortunate enough to see her live once and she is amazing.
This song popped up in iTunes and it was exactly how I was feeling that day. (You can read the inspired post that followed listening to this song.) "I wanna love. I wanna live. I don't know much about it. I about it. I never did...and lucky stars and fairy tales, I'm gonna bathe myself in an ocean well...Wish that moon would follow me home."
I Remember by Grace Askew & the Black Market Goods
Grace has a voice like Beth's...raw emotion. Grace's voice is more bottle of wine and cigarettes where Beth is more bottle of whiskey and cigarettes. There is something about this song that I just love. That admission of being alone and being okay with it yet not wanting to be alone. Remembering and loving the memories. Just beautiful and haunting.
Climbing the Walls by Stir
Another iTunes on shuffle surprise, but the moment it popped up, a flood of memories of how this song with a few others probably saved my life. Lyrically, this song expressed everything I had once felt when I was younger. "I don't know if I can make it through the night. We all want to live forever. We all want to be something someday."
Threw It All Away by Burn Halo
Lyrically, just love this song. "But I know I have wronged so many rights. Come close and you'll see that I fight to seek redemption. All the wounds heal but I know it will take time."
Soulshaper (Come With Me) by Juke Kartel
Never in a million years did I think I would be able to see this band live but they showed up at the station to play acoustic for one of my sister stations and they were fantastic. This song is their new single and as Toby described what the song was about, it just touched me. Again, another lyrical connection. "Heartbreaks repair with beating. Soulshaping times of healing...out of the dark I'm feeling you more. I'll help you breathe again...love with love."
Slow Burning Cigarette by David McMillin
David is the male version of raw emotion. If Grace is a bottle of wine and Beth is a bottle of whiskey, then David would be a single malt scotch from the oldest distillery in Scotland.
I love the way David's words paint a picture. "There's an angel on 8th Avenue with mistakes in her vein." In my head, I see the angel he's talking about and I see her story...her life.
To me, the lyrics "I'd trade home for heartache...this road never gave a damn for me and I've known it all along...I want to fall like the rain that echoes with words unspoken...love was not meant to be burned away...forgiveness takes a lifetime to learn...love is a gambler's game but I ain't gonna fold my hand," speak of a man who has loved and lost and still believes in love.
Take Another Road by Jimmy Buffett
So many nights as a teenage girl, I use to dream (and still do) of running away just like Jimmy sings in this song.
"Take another road to a hiding place. Disappear without a trace. Take another road in another time on another road in another time. Like a novel from the five and dime. Take another road another time...Never look back, this is my plan...leave my cares behind. Take my own sweet time, ocean's on my mind."
Providence by Matthew Ryan
Another raw emotion of a voice. Matthew's voice would also be a bottle of whiskey. Heartfelt, soulful, and pure emotion. I just love the emotion and Matthew's voice in this song. "All I have, all I need, all you've got is providence."
September Earworms
I wake up with the oddest songs in my head. Here are September's
09.01 - Don't Stop (Color On The Walls)
by Foster the People
09.02 - Crazy Rap (Cold 45 & 2 Zig Zags)
by Afroman
09.03 - Turn That Finger Around by honeyhoney
09.04 - Bottoms Up (feat. Nicki Minaj)
by Trey Songz
09.05 - I Remember
by Grace Askew & The Black Market Goods
09.06 - Stranded
by Burn Halo
09.07 - Let Us Down Easy
by Ryan Adams
09.08 - ---
09.09 - Ruff Ryders' Anthem
by DMX
09.10 - I'll Stay Me
by Luke Bryan
09.11 - ---
09.12 - Life, Love & Laughter
by Donavon Frakenreiter
09.13 - American Boy (Feat. Kanye West)
by Estelle
09.14 - Stitches
by Orgy
09.15 - Zooropa by U2
09.16 - Rock and Roll Fantasy by Bad Company
09.17 - ---
09.18 - ---
09.19 - ---
09.20 - Keep Your Head Up by Andy Grammer
09.21 - ---
09.22 - Te Quiero Puta by Rammstein
09.23 - Edge of Glory by Lady GaGa
09.24 - ---
09.25 - Waidmanns Heil by Rammstein
09.26 - New York by Jay Z
09.27 - ---
09.28 - ---
09.29 - ---
09.30 - ---
09.01 - Don't Stop (Color On The Walls)
by Foster the People09.02 - Crazy Rap (Cold 45 & 2 Zig Zags)
by Afroman09.03 - Turn That Finger Around by honeyhoney
09.04 - Bottoms Up (feat. Nicki Minaj)
by Trey Songz09.05 - I Remember
by Grace Askew & The Black Market Goods09.06 - Stranded
by Burn Halo09.07 - Let Us Down Easy
by Ryan Adams09.08 - ---
09.09 - Ruff Ryders' Anthem
by DMX09.10 - I'll Stay Me
by Luke Bryan09.11 - ---
09.12 - Life, Love & Laughter
by Donavon Frakenreiter09.13 - American Boy (Feat. Kanye West)
by Estelle09.14 - Stitches
by Orgy09.15 - Zooropa by U2
09.16 - Rock and Roll Fantasy by Bad Company
09.17 - ---
09.18 - ---
09.19 - ---
09.20 - Keep Your Head Up by Andy Grammer
09.21 - ---
09.22 - Te Quiero Puta by Rammstein
09.23 - Edge of Glory by Lady GaGa
09.24 - ---
09.25 - Waidmanns Heil by Rammstein
09.26 - New York by Jay Z
09.27 - ---
09.28 - ---
09.29 - ---
09.30 - ---
The Dumbing Down of Love: Day Twenty-Six
The Dumbing Down of Love
(720 Hours in a Relationship)
DAY TWENTY-SIX
“How much crap do you have?” Heather asked as she dropped an empty box and packing tape onto the floor.
“You’re lucky you didn’t have to help pack the whole house,” Olivia answered. “You’re helping with closet and that’s it.”
“Yeah well, when I took the day off from work to help you move, I thought I was going to watch hot movers move your stuff.”
“Sweetie, you live in a fantasy land,” Dean replied, sliding two suitcases towards her.
“And my fantasy land rocks,” Heather said as she began putting things into the empty box.
“Has anyone spoken to Susan or Ross today?”
“I did,” Olivia answered. “Both are doing well. Ross is taking Susan to her first therapist session.”
“Did you have any clues that Ross was gay?” Heather asked Dean.
Shaking his head, Dean sat down on the floor. “None whatsoever,” he answered and started to fold a pile of clothes, “but Kyle and I brought dinner to him last night and said we were there for him if he needed anything.”
“What did he say?”
“He thanked us, but said right now he was more concerned with being there for Susan than his own life.”
“We just need to be there for the both of them,” Olivia added. “I know they both are vulnerable right now.”
“Is that why you’re moving in with Susan?” Heather asked as Olivia walked into the closet.
“A little,” she answered, walking back out with a pile of clothes. “I think she needs someone to lean on right now.”
“What does Gray think about you moving in with Susan?” Dean asked as he put some of the folded clothes into the suitcase he had slid towards Heather.
“He understands.”
“And you’re not going to move in with him?”
Olivia shook her head. “Not right now,” she answered. “I told him that I didn’t want his family thinking he was shacking up and that until I meet them, I’d live on my own.”
“Then you could be living on your own for a long time,” Heather said, closing the box she was working on.
“Why do you say that?” Dean asked.
“Chris and Ellie have known each other since college and they’ve never met Gray’s family. Hell, Ellie didn’t even know Gray’s sister name until I told her.”
“And when will you learn to keep your big mouth shut?” Olivia asked. “You just keep getting everyone in trouble.”
“When you guys stop telling me things or when you preface it with, don’t say this to anyone.”
“But there’s a difference with Olivia,” Dean said as he closed a suitcase. “He’s shared that info with her.”
“I just find it odd that after ten plus years that his two best friends have never met his family. We’ve all known each other that long and we can call up anyone’s family without hesitation.”
“Then that’s the difference between us and them,” Olivia said.
# # #
Olivia lit the candle in the centerpiece and took a step back to admire it. She might not have been the ideal Suzy Homemaker but she knew how to craft a centerpiece with what was readily available. The only things that Gray had readily available were unopened votives and an overpriced gift basket of home decorations he forgot to give Ellie on her birthday the year before.
“Wow,” Gray said as he walked into his dining room. “I’m amazed that you got that out of what I have.”
“I’m good like that,” she replied as he came up behind her and wrapped his arm around her. “Thank you for doing all this.”
“You’re welcome,” he said and kissed her neck. “I know you’re exhausted from moving. Besides, this gives me a chance to cook for you and your best friend.”
Turning in his arms, she wrapped her arms around his neck. “And thank you for wearing your glasses too.”
“If my lady likes, then my lady gets what she wants,” Gray said with a smile.
“The lady likes,” she said and kissed him. “I will also tell you that I’m sure Dean and Kyle will like as well.”
“They think I’m hot too?”
Olivia nodded. “With everyone coming out of the closet, they’re hoping you might join the new trend.”
Gray laughed. “I don’t think you have a thing to worry about.”
“That’s a great thing to know and they’ll be very disappointed know that you are one hundred percent straight too.”
“I can’t please everyone, and I really only try to please you.”
“Even better,” she said as a timer went off in the kitchen. “Come on, before dinner burns.”
“I’m the chef tonight, you don’t get to come into the kitchen.”
“Not even to assist you? Doesn’t every top chef have a great sous chef beside them?”
“We do,” Gray answered as they walked into the kitchen together, “but this top chef is giving his sous chef the night off. She’s had a lot going on the last few days and he wants her to relax and enjoy the evening.”
“The sous chef will no longer argue with the chef,” Olivia answered as she leaned against the wall near the dining room. “Heather said something to me today and it’s been bothering me.”
“Did you ask Heather when she was going to keep her mouth shut?” Gray asked as he opened the stove.
“I did,” she answered, “and this is was another Heather opened her mouth moment.”
Closing the stove, Gray reset the timer on it and looked at her. “What did she say this time?”
“I told her and Dean why I wasn’t moving in with you and she made the comment that Chris and Ellie haven’t met your family and that Ellie didn’t even know your sister’s name until she opened her mouth that night at Dean’s.”
Gray nodded. “Yeah, Ellie bitched me out about that, but I told her she never asked about their names.”
“Never?”
“Never. Maybe it’s my fault. I always refer to them as The Sis, The Twins, or The Sis and the Hubby.”
“Do you find it weird they have never met your friends?”
“No,” Gray answered. “Em’s never here and when she is, she doesn’t want to spend time with her brother and his friends. When she’s home, she devotes her time to Brian and the kids. She makes time for my mom and me when we ask. We don’t ask too often. We understand and know that everyone loves each other.”
“And you and your mother? Do you guys see each other often?”
“Not as often as she would like,” Gray answered, “but we see each other.”
“Okay.”
“Are you sure it’s okay?”
Olivia nodded. “I was just curious. Heather thought it was weird that you guys have known each other so long but Chris had never met your family.”
“And you guys probably know everything about each other’s family?”
“Yeah.”
“Do you find it weird?”
“Not really. People are people and share what they want to share.”
Gray walked to her and took her hands into his. “It won’t take ten plus years for you to meet my family. When the timing is right, I’ll introduce you to them.”
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